and here i am, unsleep-able

Think how many people have sat next to you on a bus, train, whatever. Now think how many people have sat next to you on purpose, with their fingers crossed in hope that you’ll talk to them. I’m sure somebody has. There’s plenty of times when somebody’s seen you and hoped that you spoke to them, but you never did, ‘cause you don’t have the guts, and neither do they. Don’t go around thinking nobody likes you and that you’re not loved, there’s been plenty of times when a stranger’s spotted you and thought “oh they’re just my type,” but haven’t had the courage or confidence to open their mouth and initiate a conversation, the funny thing is, neither have you.

sand between my toes

Port Dickson . kind of a last minute planning
it was supposed to be a homestay in Pahang, but they were fully booked .
so PD it was.
It was undoubtedly fun though, sparing my holidays with my dear cousins and aunts and uncles for a change

now that i'm back, i'll have to stick my face into some books.
exams are nextweek. *fingers crossed*

a mere blurt

the day i forget your name, forget your birthday, forget your number & forget your face is the day i am going to totally forget you. so i guess it's gonna take awhile. but it's gonna happen soon because humans forget. they eventually will someday. today i randomly thought of you. well i often do. but there are days where i remember and tear up. and unfortunately it was today.

don't trust too much, don't hope too much

because it can hurt you so much

okay neither the title nor the above part has anything to do with my post. just a random quote. i love quotes if you haven't noticed. okay needless to be over-joyed bcos i have tests in about a week but lets get a bit jolly ay? IT'S MID-SEM BREAK BABY WOHOOOO ! okay thats just about how far i'll go.

so, i just finished watching lagenda budak setan for like the second time ? yep, second. i know lotsa ppl cried, excluding me though but what can i say? it should win a whole lot of awards. kudos to the director and actors. Malaysia, please do more movies like this. pretty please? tolong lah jgn lagi buat cerita merapu merabun pasal anak2 dato, kontrak 10 juta, rempit, those stupid cerita hantu (except damping malam sbb ada SEMASHUR) and cerita mak bedah gossip dgn mak timah jiran sebelah, mengumpat org kampung. oh puh-leaseeeee ! ingat nak sgt ke kami ni tgk cerita mcm ni ? oh and lemme just blurt this out ; Lisa Surihani is one fine lady ! seriously, i have had a girl crush on u for like years! kenapa kena cantik sgt ? jealous niiiii. you go girl !

cerita kedua bout today.before watching lgnda bdk stn, bangun pagi, belum mandi, makan roti lepastu abang ckp 'mira, jom pergi alamanda jom?' and i was like 'joooooom!' dah lah tengah YES, lagi lah rajin nak jalan jalan :D he said nak tgk baju lah bla bla bla. after mandi manda, we left for alamanda. jalan beli jalan beli jalan makan jalan beli. :D then nampak BANK ISLAM. saje nak check allowance dah masuk ke belum sbb haritu org kata dah masuk. check punya check, YEAYYYYY DUITTTTT ! hahaha seronok gila kot. but shhhh it's a secret from daddy. nanti mesti dia tolak my monthly allowance. so my lips are sealed. masa nak beli dress dekat ENVEE utk dinner pun fikir dua tiga kali. nak ke tanak nak ke tanak. taknak lah. lainkali. ajak daddy nnt. sorry daddy but i'll buy you a house one day :D tapi seriously that dress was GORGEOUS baby! okay okay sabar sabar.

then we drove home. by the time i got home, i was like CURSE YOU M*******L PAIN ! -_______-

hachum ! bless you

haven't been feeling so well with this bad cold i have



&


*craving for doughnuts .

love the way you lie part 2

by rihanna

i've been on 'repeat' mode for about an hour and a half
&

a sudden feeling i'm feeling :

and i'm stuck on it, not being able to finish my tutorials
-_______-

on the first page of our story, the future seemed so bright

yep zanessa broke up. but not for good. they'll get back together sooner than you think.

i followed Ilham to her audition for the Asasi Sains Grand Dinner performance. She sang like an angel and so did the others. well i have always been jealous of people that can sing. oh there was this boy & girl, strumming guitars singing Love The Way You Lie Part 2 and i literally melted at my seat when i heard the guy sing. you see, i've always had this thing for guys with guitars *drools* okay melampau.

and

i'm recently on a 'dress hunt' for the night of January the 22nd. i hope to find something like this if not prettier.

i hope i'll find the right one in pavilion's parkson during my midsem break

it's been a year

♥

today. one year has passed.
i miss you. sometimes i do.
once in a while.
sometimes.
there’s no drama. no one cheated. we just grew up
you were my first, ever.
now i'm looking forward to meet my last.

tickle the ivories

yes, its a friday and its raining like crazy so yeah i'm still under my duvet while writing this. i love the rain especially on days i can just curl up in bed with a book in one hand and a cup of coffee in the other. i wouldn't mind playing in the rain though like when i was a kid. i miss reading. well to be precise, reading as in reading things apart from college books. i used to read at a regular basis but now since this foundation program is awfully a short program yet so much theories and formulas i have to memorize, i am obliged to abandon reading for a while. my language is becoming sucky and flat. its kinda starting to bore myself. Anyhow, i still manage to go browsing once in a while to discover books i'd like to read after my foundation ends in march 2011. the short list includes :

• Beastly by Alex Finn
  
• The Memory Keeper's Daughter by Kim Edwards
• The Girl With The Glass Feet by Ali Shaw
• Does My Head Look Big In This by Abdel Fattah Randa

i'm also considering a wardrobe change cause i have tons of clothes but i have literally nothing to wear. you see, everytime i plan to go out i usually spend the whole night to pick out what i would wear. My mom is in fact a big fan of The Gardens, Midvalley and we go there on fridays when i'm back home which i always HAVE to pay a visit to Kate Spade, the only outlet here in Malaysia. I've been a big fan of her's since last year and i get all pumped among walking through their front door. everything is super pretty and uh so beautiful! if only i had a million ringgit in my pocket, i'd buy em all. what's not to love about this and this and this and this and this and ugh this

i've tried batting my eyes at daddy and say 'daddy you are the best. nak ni boleh ?' then he just said 'awak kecik lagi nak pakai benda benda mahal mcm ni. tunggu besar sikit' and i was like -_______- well maybe he's right. atleast i have something to make me work a lil harder. and as he's always been, (the greatest dad of all time) he bought me something while he was in the States and eventhough it wasn't kate spade, but it was coach and though i'm not a big fan of coach (except the Poppy line), i'm touched that he understands and knows how much i want these :') so i'm grateful anyways and will definately end up owning a whole lot of kate spade's collection soon. just you wait !

due to boredom

studying all day can make me sick sometimes, so i thought i'd do some major 'room cleaning' :DD
Oh ! i forgot to write bout the barbecue at sarah's yesterday.
nvm i'll write bout that later once i get the photos frm mr. photog, Adly (:

so about the major cleaning.

• i made my bed and qasya's too.
• swept the floor
• sidai carpet
• mopped the floor

qasya's still at home, and i got back here yesterday night after the barbecue.
so the room was all to me, blasting music and pretending the mop stick was a guitar :D

bertuahnyaaaaaa qasya ada roomate mcm ni *malu tutup muka :DD

friday

suit up! it's time to partayyyyyy.

i'l be swimming and rolling on my bed dreaming bout how awesome i'll be someday, while ppl will be busy getting ready for classes and lectures ! i have no classes on fridays baby! woohooo.

*okay lamanyaaa tak tgk HIMYM. i miss you barney and all the weird stuff you do. yet you never fail to amaze me :D

Dear mathematics,

why don't you grow up and solve your own problems ?

-________-

i slept like a log this evening from eating sleeping pills ( ubat selsema )
ingat overseas je ke sejuk ? puncak alam pun sama je sampai selsema selsema.
now i'm wide awake, stuck doing these crazy math problems.


bear with me mind, please. don't go berserk. yet

love endures all things

in the midst of finishing my assignment on ecology, i got extremely bored.

then it hit me. a picture i once saw but never could recall where from
then i tried to draw it :

tadaa ! comel kan binatang 2 ekor ni (: so if you don't get what the picture's about, then you probably have a major lack of imagination.
well yeah. love does endure all things i guess.

"no does not mean forever, it just means not yet. When God knows you're ready for the responsibility of commitment, He'll reveal the right person under the right circumstances . "

*this is why i'm in ♥ with tumblr. i learn new things .

okay back to the ecology assignment .

utter discomfort

the fact that i have blisters on each foot is madly painful & utterly ANNOYING !
jangan ckp lah teruk mana. even more worse than the ones i used to get during kawad wearing those awfully stiff marching boots .
curse you, new shoes ! but thnkyou daddy for buying em. they're undeniably pretty .
so killer fashion i suppose ?
cos of this i shower 15 mins less than usual, walk like an idiot trying to stand the pain and friggin wrap my blister with cotton balls and cellotape 5 times a day. mind you, i dont have any plasters. no one does around here -_____-
can't wait to go home and buy me a box of em with those pretty pictures.

note-to-self :
Stop procrastinating. study harder

back to december

this month last year, things were different.
i was busy mending myself over the huge bitterness and betrayal i felt which now still hasn't completely faded .
i'm learning to cherish those memories i had in the past and starting to believe that God has better plans fr me
i won't be sad any longer for i am grateful 'you' breezed through a chapter of my life ♥

Dear fate,
I know you have decided what's going to happen to us humans, but could you lessen the bitterness in the next chapter of my life? It would be nice to end the year with tears of laughter instead of heart-breaks and sadness. I think i've learnt my lesson. Please?

if u've evr loved smbdy put yr hands up

will u cme back? no one knows
i realize it was only just a dream

to somebody nobody in particular. just a cool cover of a song i ♥

have a break, have a kitkat

been reading organic chemistry since noon
well its getting harder to stay awake now that its drizzling and the sound of the raindrops is making me feel awfully drowsy.
so instead of falling dead asleep i thought i'd take a break and do some tumblr-ing.
cheers (:

Bachelor of Medicine and Bachelor of Surgery

I'm having the urge to go back this weekend. But I'm gonna hold that back because i know how badly i need to study.

The sky's the limit

I'm so jealous of those ppl that are already doing their degree in Medicine

*I adore all of you ♥

i really really REALLY hope that i'll be one of you're peers one day

THE SKY IS THE LIMIT .

pffft .

some people are still alive only because it is against the law to kill em

I'm leaving on a jet plane

I'm leaving on a jet plane. i don't know when i'll be back again. Oh babe i hate to go

well i won't really be riding a plane like those kelantan and terengganu kids but i will be leaving. destination Puncak Alam and yeah i hate to go. the shitty-est part is packing. It's always been my biggest pet peeve evaaa ! I haven't even started. To be frank all i've done is shoved a few clothes into a corner of my room. I'm begging fr mercy here *yawns*

Al-Jabbar

sekarang ni dekat bangi. lepas daddy balik kerja tadi dia ajak pergi minum teh tarik dekat mamak mana entah dekat2 sini. before this i've only heard of ppl drinking milo dinosaur, semua kata sedap lah apa lah so tadi pun saje lah nak cuba. mak aih tercekik dgn serdak serdak milo tu. sebenarnyaaaa dia kena kacau dulu ke serbuk2 milo tu ? ke mmg dia sengaja buat mcmtu lepastu boleh mkn serbuk2 tu ? ish tak reti. noob ! -____- tapi roti stim susu serious sedap gilaaa !

haaa lepastu daddy kata 'mira jom pergi al-jabbar kejap. nak beli slipper' and i was like 'al-jabbar tu kedai apa?' but i didn't say it out aloud. malas nak tanya so ikut jelaaa. tengok tengok we pulled up in front of Al-Ikhsan. Laaaaaa Al-Jabbar tu Al-Ikhsan keee ? -______- hahaha lawak jelaaaa sukati je tukar2 nama.

OMK !

OMK = OH MAK KAU ! hehe
seronoknyaaaa dah reti tdo malam. seronok jugak bila breakfast at 9 a.m, not 5 p.m

and theres one thing i learned yesterday :
TO ANSWER MY FRIGGIN' PHONE EVEN IF I DON'T KNOW WHO'S NUMBER IT IS
haha its always been my thing ; to ignore calls frm numbers i don't recognize unless i'm expecting a phone call. sombong ? ceh, manada !

sebab sebab dah menyesal buat mcm tu :

siapa siapa yg rasa rabun, tekan gmbr tu utk magnification :D

amar is one of my dearest friend besides emira nabila and i've known him since i was fourteen.
he has an amazing sense of humour, tickling everyone's funny bones
dulu masa form3, kitorang main pas2 surat eventho he sat right behind me. lepastu Melo pun mula geram geram entah sbb dia jealous kot haha
amar has been an awesome friend and i know he always will be :)

TERHARU TAK AMAR ? hahaha

hehe comel nyaa !

tengok lah ni tengok lah ni.

daddy joined facebook :)

taknak raya lah mcm ni :(

kompang dipalu, pengantin baru haha tu haaa inai baru dijari kat gambar sebelah ni. pagi raya tadi baru pakai itupun tak sengaja jumpa inai dekat dalam laci masa cari nail clipper :D

okay bukan nak cerita pasal tu. ni tengah SEDIH GILAAAA tak jadi balik rumah opah raya tadi :( semua sebab tadi ada saudara belah sape2 entah datang raya rumah. eeeee sebok jee -____- takde mood nak layan diorang so tadi makan pun dekat dapur, tgk tv dekat dapur jugak.. boleh pulaaaak diorang bergelak sakan dekat living room tu while i was super super annoyed that because of them, i didn't get to eat opah's rendang and kuah satay ! the awful-est part was Lisa & Zachary byk gila gila gla call to ask

'kak mira dtg pukul berapa ?'
'alaaaa kak mira dtg lah'
'kak mira dah boleh dtg dah?'
'kak mira org tu dah balik dah?'
'kak mira zachary nak jumpa'
i miss you budak budak :(

lisa, me, zachary

mini skirts are hot !

but baju kurung(s) are HOTTER ! tadi jalan terhuyung hayang terkedek kedek pg beli baju kurung dgn mommy. mamai sangaaaat, mana tak nya tak tdo malam -____- haaa padan muka ! baju kurung ni bukan utk raya haji tapi utk pg lectures dkt puncak alam hehe. tak tahu kenapa tp semua pun baju cotton polka polka dot dgn bunga2 kecik

balik balik kena tlng mommy potong bawang sayur yang banyak gila nak buat lodeh. mmg serupa zombie, mata separuh buka, ngantuk GILA ! last2 lapik surat khabar dpn tv & bawa sayur sayur bawang pisau semua pg potong dpn tv.

lepas maghrib terus terbongkang tido depan tv saaaaampai pukul 12 mcm tu lepastu mommy kejut 'dah smayang isyak?' hehehe terus terbangun naik bilik. then mula lah teringat zaman2 SEMASHUR dulu

*selalunya masa form5*
habis je prep malam terus naik dorm naik katil then tdo dgn berbaju kurung lagi. lepastu agak agak pukul 3 ke 4 terjaga baru nak smayang isyak. sodorm lah tapi hehehe malu. itu pun bawa telekung pg sebelah katil loly sbb selalunya dia belum tdo duk bergayut dgn boyfriend boyfriend dia :D nak semayang tepi katil sndr, takut sbb semua dah tdo.

lepastu tukar baju tdo, naik katil then tdo. lepastu bangun lmbt, berebut dkt shower tggu turn mandi :DD those good old days (padahal baru tahun lepas haha)

i hate this !

Grrr i hate the fact that at night i can only get two hours of sleep max but during the day i sleep like a log with 7 hours min .
apa nak jadi anak daraaaaaaa -___________-

remember when the boys were all electric

ugly funny guys are way hotter than boring hot guys.

I got up from the couch, flipped open my laptop and logged in to my blogger account to share something to prove everyone wrong. COFFEE IS NOT ALL THAT BAD FOR YOU !

My housemates and cousins are always complaining that i'm such a coffee addict and that i might die fast -____- well, IN YOUR FACE ! you guys are so wrong *evil laugh*

the google results :

children who drink coffee with milk are less likely to have depression than other children. Coffee can make the heart stronger and protects it against heart diseases.Coffee stimulates the action of the heart muscle.So, it can reduce the risk of abnormal heart rhythm

Only too much will be harmful. well screw that, even too much of a good thing is bad. everything must be well balanced.

so if you're one of those I-need-a-cup-of-coffee-right-now type of person like me, then HIGH 5 and lets indulge our love fr coffee by making a cup right now :)

30 minute magic

Boleh ke selsema fr only half an hour ?

hachum hachum hachum, blow nose
hachum hachum hachum, blow nose
blow nose blow nose blow nose, hachum

30 mins later...

*silent*

mentang2 MUET, takpayah lah buat suasana mcm LONDON

My MUET turned out fine. The huge and annoying problem was the freezing exam hall. I mean ice cold ! I shivered so hard that my lips went numb and my fingers turned blue. To think of it I actually looked like a freak suffering a severe case of Parkinsons demmit. Thank God my brain didn't freeze and my fingers could still function .

my hand hurts :(

haa nmpk tak benda bulat at my wrist ?lenguh lenguh ! sakit tau ! yesterday i went to see an orthopedic. i have to go thru surgery baby ! kena potong benda alah tu. aaaaa gila apa? Doc said that its called wrist ganglion cyst. my synovial fluid was leaking and that causes the lump. Doc tu siap buat lawak tau. dia kata kalau taknak go thru surgery, org dulu2 ketuk je pakai tukul ke apa biar fluid tu mengalir. err sorry doc, that wasn't funny. i'd rather do a minor surgery than breaking my bones --'

It's not Fathers Day, but

Your little girl has grown up daddy. She lies to you about her day, and goes out with friends rather than staying home. She knows how to doll herself up , and she has an interest for guys. However daddy, the only man she will forever love the most is you. She may have a million guys who steal and break her heart, but you are the only one who can give your blessings and allow the right gentleman to take your place as the new protector of the heart. I love you Daddy, signed your daughter.

geli geliman

this post title says it all.

needless to mention names, but u're just soooo annoying.
mula2 i thought u were kinda cool. haha i was wrong.
booooo !

yo bro! apasal u mcmtu? baru nak suka2 dlm diam. skali dah tunjuk belang. eee dah geli dah. tak jadi nak crush2. haha byebye lah bro

okay post bawah ni tak jadi ye dear readers. dah tak crush dah atas sbb2 yg tertentu :D

GOODNIGHT !

baby i'm yours

i have a crush on you :)

and


can't stop listening to Arctic Monkeys - Baby I'm Yours

haaa padan muka

i dislike waiting
i dislike waiting
i dislike waiting

tak best pon !

oleh sebab dah mabuk kepayang dkt junpyo (boys over flowers) my friends suggested personal taste, also featuring lee min ho. but DISAPPOINTMENT! tak best pun? first episode pun dah rasa nak tido. boring nyaaa lah cerita ni. takde lawak2 ke ? alahai. well that was the first and last episode i watched haha. so i guess i don't like kdramas. i just like junpyo ! awww ♥

okay yesterday i drove to sg wang with faghah and ain. dah lah mlm tu tak tdo, not even fr a minute ! insomnia-ish ? aaa wtv. tapi hebat lah kan drive all the way to sg wang yg nasib baik tak jam. so jalan jalan jalan cari bag si faghah. dia nak bgaya pergi class next sem :D sooo mula2 pg sg wang tu kami bertiga bought plimsoll shoes. mine and faghah's were red. ain's was brown. and i bought this The Rolling Stones tshirt yay ! tanpa segan silu masuk kedai2 yg dipenuhi jejaka jejaka yg berseluar skinny yg agak agak cool.

so then jalan jalan jalan lagi to pavi fr lunch. it felt like ages since i went there. masuk je Zara, me and faghah became BOF frenzy haha. nmpk sweater2 comel je ingat Jandi. Ada this one row of coats terus ingat F4. jumpa coat hitam yg pnjng terus sebut Junpyo haha. paling tak boleh blah was a short black jacket with a badge. 'SHINHWA' hahaha

balik tu we went back to TS sbb i parked my car there. i don't really like TS act. mainly bcos of the people yg berseluar skinny and berspek mata hitam jalan tekangkang kangkang huru hara je tmpt tu.

okay okay thats all :)

rants rants rants

tak dpt pun 4flat. jadi cleaner jelah mcmni :( siapa kata spm penentu hidup ? tipu tipu tipu. ASASI yg penentu hidup and unfortunately my ticket to doing medic just flew away. byebye lah medic. spm gempak mana pun tak dpt nk pursue.

mommy ? she didn't take it so well. still she wnts me to try my best

daddy ? like always, being so so supportive.

me : (in tears) daddy ! result teruk ni. mira buat biotech jelah. jd lecturer je
daddy : takpayah mira takpayah. belum habis lg ni. sem 2 kan ada lg. jgn sedih sedih.

thankyou. i love you

i hate you cry baby

THIS IS A NOTE-TO-SELF.

sometimes i hate being such a softy. sikit sikit teringat. sikit sikit nak sedih. sikit sikit nak je text tp punyalah takut. ish alaaa ish alaaa ish pffft ! please laaaaa emira assila ! dah setahun kot and if he wanted to talk, he would just talk. and and stop lah expecting. just stop ! I know you still care and i know you still would just simply crawl back to him but NO ! you have pride and dignity. he chose to move on and so will you !

well yeah those memories just pop out of nowhere but what the heck. nama pun memories and bukannya boleh buat apa pun. i knooow that it's kinda shitty when you start comparing other guys with him, that no one can be better than him. but what the hell ? of course there are alot of better off guys than him. why can't you see mira oi ? why are you making such a big deal out of this c'mon lah.

please stick thru this and try to forget him. please please please. if Tyson Ritter can forget his girlfriend of 6 years, then so can you.

fr the friggin last time i'll say this out loud (i mean public) :
i miss you al-haizat

this is the original recording of Tyson Ritter's song he wrote after he broke up with 6 -year gf, Kim Smith.

Even he said : A broken heart just takes time

Norman Musa

Nooo he's not my current boyfriend. he's actually the author of this amazing cookbook i bought. frankly lately i have a passion towards cooking so i thought that by buying this book, i could learn how to cook pure Malaysian cuisines :)

just wondering

i haven't seen you since last year and i was just wondering, are you okay ?
i heard u've started working.
and since we don't talk anymore, i just hope you're doing fine.
just bcos i still care :)

reblog reblog reblog

well it seems that i signed up fr a tumblr account despite what i said in my last post. maybe just one more social network wouldn't hurt. what can i say, i can't resist looking at beautiful pictures. so here, take a look fr yrself. cheers !

http://yellowcaravan.tumblr.com/


goodnight :)

a long long post

i just love searching fr pretty cool pictures but i just dnt know where to post em. and no, i can't afford handling another social network ; tumblr, flickr and such. so i'll just post em here fr now :)

for the first time in days

it's raining it's pouring

the old man is snoring
he went to bed and bumped his head
and couldn't get up in the morning

the rain is making me hungry

he puts a smile on my face

after a loooong drive back home (an hour and a half facing the crazy traffic), he put a smile on my face with his message.

"Hi mira! buat apa tu ?
kat sini dah sejuk around 10 daylight.
petang tadi daddy belikan jam and t-shirt utk mira.
Mesti mira suka. Bye manja "

my fave guy :)

quotes and pretty pictures

nothing personal

sometimes i just let my phone ring. it's nothing personal. there are times that i just don't want to talk.

and i've had this current feeling that i don't like a guy to get too close with me. it gets pretty uncomfortable.