and here i am, unsleep-able

Think how many people have sat next to you on a bus, train, whatever. Now think how many people have sat next to you on purpose, with their fingers crossed in hope that you’ll talk to them. I’m sure somebody has. There’s plenty of times when somebody’s seen you and hoped that you spoke to them, but you never did, ‘cause you don’t have the guts, and neither do they. Don’t go around thinking nobody likes you and that you’re not loved, there’s been plenty of times when a stranger’s spotted you and thought “oh they’re just my type,” but haven’t had the courage or confidence to open their mouth and initiate a conversation, the funny thing is, neither have you.

sand between my toes

Port Dickson . kind of a last minute planning
it was supposed to be a homestay in Pahang, but they were fully booked .
so PD it was.
It was undoubtedly fun though, sparing my holidays with my dear cousins and aunts and uncles for a change

now that i'm back, i'll have to stick my face into some books.
exams are nextweek. *fingers crossed*

a mere blurt

the day i forget your name, forget your birthday, forget your number & forget your face is the day i am going to totally forget you. so i guess it's gonna take awhile. but it's gonna happen soon because humans forget. they eventually will someday. today i randomly thought of you. well i often do. but there are days where i remember and tear up. and unfortunately it was today.

don't trust too much, don't hope too much

because it can hurt you so much

okay neither the title nor the above part has anything to do with my post. just a random quote. i love quotes if you haven't noticed. okay needless to be over-joyed bcos i have tests in about a week but lets get a bit jolly ay? IT'S MID-SEM BREAK BABY WOHOOOO ! okay thats just about how far i'll go.

so, i just finished watching lagenda budak setan for like the second time ? yep, second. i know lotsa ppl cried, excluding me though but what can i say? it should win a whole lot of awards. kudos to the director and actors. Malaysia, please do more movies like this. pretty please? tolong lah jgn lagi buat cerita merapu merabun pasal anak2 dato, kontrak 10 juta, rempit, those stupid cerita hantu (except damping malam sbb ada SEMASHUR) and cerita mak bedah gossip dgn mak timah jiran sebelah, mengumpat org kampung. oh puh-leaseeeee ! ingat nak sgt ke kami ni tgk cerita mcm ni ? oh and lemme just blurt this out ; Lisa Surihani is one fine lady ! seriously, i have had a girl crush on u for like years! kenapa kena cantik sgt ? jealous niiiii. you go girl !

cerita kedua bout today.before watching lgnda bdk stn, bangun pagi, belum mandi, makan roti lepastu abang ckp 'mira, jom pergi alamanda jom?' and i was like 'joooooom!' dah lah tengah YES, lagi lah rajin nak jalan jalan :D he said nak tgk baju lah bla bla bla. after mandi manda, we left for alamanda. jalan beli jalan beli jalan makan jalan beli. :D then nampak BANK ISLAM. saje nak check allowance dah masuk ke belum sbb haritu org kata dah masuk. check punya check, YEAYYYYY DUITTTTT ! hahaha seronok gila kot. but shhhh it's a secret from daddy. nanti mesti dia tolak my monthly allowance. so my lips are sealed. masa nak beli dress dekat ENVEE utk dinner pun fikir dua tiga kali. nak ke tanak nak ke tanak. taknak lah. lainkali. ajak daddy nnt. sorry daddy but i'll buy you a house one day :D tapi seriously that dress was GORGEOUS baby! okay okay sabar sabar.

then we drove home. by the time i got home, i was like CURSE YOU M*******L PAIN ! -_______-

hachum ! bless you

haven't been feeling so well with this bad cold i have



&


*craving for doughnuts .

love the way you lie part 2

by rihanna

i've been on 'repeat' mode for about an hour and a half
&

a sudden feeling i'm feeling :

and i'm stuck on it, not being able to finish my tutorials
-_______-

on the first page of our story, the future seemed so bright

yep zanessa broke up. but not for good. they'll get back together sooner than you think.

i followed Ilham to her audition for the Asasi Sains Grand Dinner performance. She sang like an angel and so did the others. well i have always been jealous of people that can sing. oh there was this boy & girl, strumming guitars singing Love The Way You Lie Part 2 and i literally melted at my seat when i heard the guy sing. you see, i've always had this thing for guys with guitars *drools* okay melampau.

and

i'm recently on a 'dress hunt' for the night of January the 22nd. i hope to find something like this if not prettier.

i hope i'll find the right one in pavilion's parkson during my midsem break

it's been a year

♥

today. one year has passed.
i miss you. sometimes i do.
once in a while.
sometimes.
there’s no drama. no one cheated. we just grew up
you were my first, ever.
now i'm looking forward to meet my last.

tickle the ivories

yes, its a friday and its raining like crazy so yeah i'm still under my duvet while writing this. i love the rain especially on days i can just curl up in bed with a book in one hand and a cup of coffee in the other. i wouldn't mind playing in the rain though like when i was a kid. i miss reading. well to be precise, reading as in reading things apart from college books. i used to read at a regular basis but now since this foundation program is awfully a short program yet so much theories and formulas i have to memorize, i am obliged to abandon reading for a while. my language is becoming sucky and flat. its kinda starting to bore myself. Anyhow, i still manage to go browsing once in a while to discover books i'd like to read after my foundation ends in march 2011. the short list includes :

• Beastly by Alex Finn
  
• The Memory Keeper's Daughter by Kim Edwards
• The Girl With The Glass Feet by Ali Shaw
• Does My Head Look Big In This by Abdel Fattah Randa

i'm also considering a wardrobe change cause i have tons of clothes but i have literally nothing to wear. you see, everytime i plan to go out i usually spend the whole night to pick out what i would wear. My mom is in fact a big fan of The Gardens, Midvalley and we go there on fridays when i'm back home which i always HAVE to pay a visit to Kate Spade, the only outlet here in Malaysia. I've been a big fan of her's since last year and i get all pumped among walking through their front door. everything is super pretty and uh so beautiful! if only i had a million ringgit in my pocket, i'd buy em all. what's not to love about this and this and this and this and this and ugh this

i've tried batting my eyes at daddy and say 'daddy you are the best. nak ni boleh ?' then he just said 'awak kecik lagi nak pakai benda benda mahal mcm ni. tunggu besar sikit' and i was like -_______- well maybe he's right. atleast i have something to make me work a lil harder. and as he's always been, (the greatest dad of all time) he bought me something while he was in the States and eventhough it wasn't kate spade, but it was coach and though i'm not a big fan of coach (except the Poppy line), i'm touched that he understands and knows how much i want these :') so i'm grateful anyways and will definately end up owning a whole lot of kate spade's collection soon. just you wait !

due to boredom

studying all day can make me sick sometimes, so i thought i'd do some major 'room cleaning' :DD
Oh ! i forgot to write bout the barbecue at sarah's yesterday.
nvm i'll write bout that later once i get the photos frm mr. photog, Adly (:

so about the major cleaning.

• i made my bed and qasya's too.
• swept the floor
• sidai carpet
• mopped the floor

qasya's still at home, and i got back here yesterday night after the barbecue.
so the room was all to me, blasting music and pretending the mop stick was a guitar :D

bertuahnyaaaaaa qasya ada roomate mcm ni *malu tutup muka :DD

friday

suit up! it's time to partayyyyyy.

i'l be swimming and rolling on my bed dreaming bout how awesome i'll be someday, while ppl will be busy getting ready for classes and lectures ! i have no classes on fridays baby! woohooo.

*okay lamanyaaa tak tgk HIMYM. i miss you barney and all the weird stuff you do. yet you never fail to amaze me :D

Dear mathematics,

why don't you grow up and solve your own problems ?

-________-

i slept like a log this evening from eating sleeping pills ( ubat selsema )
ingat overseas je ke sejuk ? puncak alam pun sama je sampai selsema selsema.
now i'm wide awake, stuck doing these crazy math problems.


bear with me mind, please. don't go berserk. yet

love endures all things

in the midst of finishing my assignment on ecology, i got extremely bored.

then it hit me. a picture i once saw but never could recall where from
then i tried to draw it :

tadaa ! comel kan binatang 2 ekor ni (: so if you don't get what the picture's about, then you probably have a major lack of imagination.
well yeah. love does endure all things i guess.

"no does not mean forever, it just means not yet. When God knows you're ready for the responsibility of commitment, He'll reveal the right person under the right circumstances . "

*this is why i'm in ♥ with tumblr. i learn new things .

okay back to the ecology assignment .

utter discomfort

the fact that i have blisters on each foot is madly painful & utterly ANNOYING !
jangan ckp lah teruk mana. even more worse than the ones i used to get during kawad wearing those awfully stiff marching boots .
curse you, new shoes ! but thnkyou daddy for buying em. they're undeniably pretty .
so killer fashion i suppose ?
cos of this i shower 15 mins less than usual, walk like an idiot trying to stand the pain and friggin wrap my blister with cotton balls and cellotape 5 times a day. mind you, i dont have any plasters. no one does around here -_____-
can't wait to go home and buy me a box of em with those pretty pictures.

note-to-self :
Stop procrastinating. study harder

back to december

this month last year, things were different.
i was busy mending myself over the huge bitterness and betrayal i felt which now still hasn't completely faded .
i'm learning to cherish those memories i had in the past and starting to believe that God has better plans fr me
i won't be sad any longer for i am grateful 'you' breezed through a chapter of my life ♥

Dear fate,
I know you have decided what's going to happen to us humans, but could you lessen the bitterness in the next chapter of my life? It would be nice to end the year with tears of laughter instead of heart-breaks and sadness. I think i've learnt my lesson. Please?